Letter 20 – An Exaggerated Sense of Responsibility

 

Dear Garrett,

Tricia tells me that I have an exaggerated sense of responsibility for your death. This might be true, but I feel so deeply that I could have changed the course of events that night. I could have, if only. If only I had been faster, as I’ve said. Or more responsive. Quicker to act. Intervened sooner. But I wasn’t. And I didn’t. And you are gone. I am sorry that I wasn’t there. I was RIGHT THERE. But I wasn’t there, for you. I will regret that for the rest of my life.