Hi, Garrett.
My counselor tells me that I need to find a way to go towards love. That there is love that you have to give, that you still are able to share with me. She is telling me that you are out there. Are you there?
Dear Garrett, Tricia has said that the level of grief one experiences is dependent on the level of attachment you had with that person. I think for many people who haven’t experienced the grief of death, to hear about a death is a momentary shock. It might make them consider for a minute their own…
Garrett, It’s taken almost an entire year to accept the fact that you have died. That you are gone. I haven’t wanted to do this. And I’ve resisted it. But, it is time. You are not coming back. I will never see you again in this life. There is a part of me that…
Hi, Garrett, Apparently, I told a whole lot of people that you died, but I never thought about it as actually saying it. Now that I’m thinking about it, I remember it very clearly. How painful it was to write that email. You died on a Wednesday night. On Thursday morning, I sent some…
Garrett, The date of your death is coming up soon, and I haven’t yet talked about what happened. I know I need to. I need to pull it out and lay it down and go over it as I understand it. But I find I can’t do that until I’ve first looked at other…
Garrett, The time has come. I need to be able to talk about the night you died. I’ve nibbled around the edges of it and now I need to face that day. I don’t want to. There is so much sadness and regret surrounding it. But I have to be able to do it,…
Dear Garrett, This calculator. This calculator that I use every week. The first time I sat down to pay bills after you died, I took the cover of the calculator off, and I froze. I had forgotten. I stared down at the inside of the cover, and the tears came. At some point, I…
